Call me Crazy

tonight is the night im going to meet my fathers girlfriend. we are going to go out to dinner. its funny how im nervous. cause my dad seems excited about her i want to get along with her for him. i just hope we dont disagree politically cause thats hard for me to overlook. ive been thinking about getting a pet. im not sure if they are allowed here but i need something to keep me company. judy does keep insisting that she will move in with me once her promotion goes through. i dont know how good of an idea it is if we live together but im pretty laid back. as long as she doesnt bring some of the men of her past around the apartment...she might scare my new dog/cat/iguana..we will see...for now i will geta house plant and talk to it...that sounds sad

Current Mood: giggly
Current Music: ani

so last night travis and i got coffee. well he got hot chocolate. coffee keeps him up. hes going back to school in a week. he says he comes home on the weekend a lot. so ill probably still see him. im not looking for anything too serious yet anyway. speaking of which, i ran into matt at the mall. thank god i was with judy (i dont think i could have done it alone)its just weird to spend so much time with someone and then have it resort to panic outside of a a Gap. and we used to always say we wouldnt end up like that....

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: flaming lips

so my dads big news is that he is seeing a woman. i like when he treats me like im still a lttile girl and can't handle things like that. He wants to get together for dinner so i can meet her. he told me to try to dress "nice". he got a look and a little bit of an attitude. as if im going to pull a "parent trap" act or something. im a little too old to be acting this way to sabotage your life dad. i just dont think he gets it, but i like when he tries to compare it to a rebellion from his day. i wasnt feeling too good so i didnt go into work today. ive been laying around watching tv. its funny cause that one semester or marketing i took at school helps me watch commercials in a whole new light....i wish it was my job to make something like dish detergent exciting to the viewer at home...but i dont think i understand the way the majority of the american public think so maybe thats not the best job for me

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: the sounds of a thunderstom (its soothing)

well travis (the guy from new years) did come by the store this week....we are supposed to get coffee this week sometime....i dont know if he is exactly my type...but i like the way i am around him...does that make sense?...and i think he likes that im a little different...he still in college which is funny...cause that feels so long ago for me...and he studying to be an engineer!!.....how not me is that....i cant do math with a flashlight and a calculater....ok well tonight im going home to have dinner with my dad...he said he has some "news"....thats never good

Current Mood: pensive
Current Music: nick drake

ok so last night was very very interesting....hank picked me up around 1030....i was beginning to get nervous that he wasnt coming ...but i guess he is always late....he said he got lost...so the party was kind of lame at first....it felt kind of like a j crew add at first...and i walked in and they all just looked at me like...who brought you?....im used to that look....anyway....my jeans turned out cool...even if they werent appreciated by the crowd....so hank got really drunk and started touching me a lot...and then i realized how not into him i was....so i actually ended up leaving with this other guy there i was talking to ...he said his friend was having a party down the road....we ended up driving around for a while and actaully had new years eve in his car...it was kind of romantic...i gave him my number and he said he comes by the suf shop sometimes so maybe he will...hes only 20 so that might be too young but after being with matt for three years (he was 5 years older)....i might need a younger man...ok well i need to sleep this hangover off

Current Mood: flirty
Current Music: not with this headache

so tonight is new years eve....judy is ditching me to go to her sisters dinner party up in San Fran....so i think im going to take hank from work up on his party invite....im not sure if he likes me or just being nice...but either way it should be fun...im going out shopping tonight to get a new outfit cause im getting bored with what i have...im thinking of cutting my old pair of jeans up a certian way....i hate when i have an idea in my head of what i want them to look like then i end up sitting on my green shag carpet, angry and not getting any closer to what i want...but isnt that life....my dad stopped by yesterday and dropped off his old turn table and some of his records....so ive been listening nonstop to them...i love the way vinyl sounds!....i wish there was a button on my ipod to add a vinyl sound...im writing apple a letter!.....ok well i hope tongiht is fun and tomorrow is a new day

Current Mood: energetic
Current Music: anything vinyl

so work is going really well...my boss is really hot...so its kinda hard to concentrate sometimes. today i gave the wrong change to a man and i kinda was embarassed...tonight im supposed to meet up with judy to go to a club and see this band she likes. i think she wants me to drive so im not sure if i can drink. thats probably for the best after the "llama" incendent. the holidays were good. i went to my uncles house with my dad....uncle frank is doing better....the divorce was hard on him...but he knows that its for the best...i think i might get a new piercing soon....im not sure where...my exboyfriend always tried to talk me into piercing my clit so i might do it now to spite him....

Current Mood: creative
Current Music: the beatles

this is my first entry. i just moved out here to get away. Im looking for friends...cause im feeling a little lonely...i hope to get a picture up soon...but i have to figure out my digital camera...:)

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: the postal service